Just another rant

This has been in my drafts for a while now.. I thought I should publish this…

You know maybe olden times were simpler, when everyone in a community cared about each other, knew about each other, when the word of the elders was the final word and you didn’t even want to oppose them.. when you worked all day with your friends and came home to your family… when there were no gadgets, no computers, no internet.. internet forums and groups and facebook is like the clans of the old world and the fact that we can’t feel each other around, makes us all behave like ass holes and jerks because we can be. earlier we used to be jerks to other clans and animals..
we spend all our lives being taught not to be violent, be civilized, not topple the jug over, carry ourselves gracefully, but what abt our animal instincts? what if i want to hit someone? should i hit myself? that’s why we play sports…. its the same thing, the clan, the enemies and all.. but i can’t even play sports properly… i wonder what i can do to get out of this birth/death cycle..
i think i’m gonna have a lonely life.. i’m ugly, and even i wouldnt be attracted to me.. so how can i expect anyone else to be.. i guess i’ll die masturbating in my old torn down room, with a packet of chips nearby, me staring at the computer screen and people wouldn’t even notice that i died…. I CAN HAZ A LIFE?
tell me what should i do? how do i get rid of my loser habits? I hope i am able to someday.. but would it even matter if i did?
let’s say i get into a good college and i get a good job and i get married and i ignore my family to earn loads of money and then what? i die…. and what would i have to show for my life then? did i contribute to the society in any way? or just lent a hand to the big corporate companies who suck our blood in return.. why was money created? i wish we would still have barter system and lead simpler lives……..

Eight Things…….

Well, I was reading a blog, and a post had been done by this person, about eight things he’s passionate about, and I thought that was really cool, so here goes my post:

Eight things I am passionate about

Okay let’s see;

1) Movies: Yes, Movies are my biggest passion. I like watching new movies everyday, but sadly my internet connection is slow and it takes me about 2 days to download one. I currently have a “to download” list of about 150 movies. I am so passionate about movies, that I wanna be a director.

2) Psychology: I like to understand how people’s minds work. I like to know why someone did something, and what inspired him to do so. I like to understand human nature, and keep reading my sister’s graduation course books of psychology. And I’m not blowing my trumpets, but I’m really good.

3) Science: I like Biology and Physics, because I like to know the mysterious ways in which nature works. I have always liked human biology, because I wanna know how my body works and reacts. It’s kind of related to my psychology passion. Physics, is total bliss. Einstein is my idol and I love studying quantum mechanics and the string theory.

4) Day Dreaming: I day dream a lot, and I mean a lot. I spend more time day dreaming than I spend studying. I dream about my future life, and ow I would like certain things in my life to be. I often react to things like…”I wouldn’t have done it like this, when I have kids, I’ll do it like that.”

5) Writing: Yes, I like writing, but not my homework, I despise that. But I squeeze out story ideas out of every situation or every tv show I watch, and I have a notepad file full of these ideas. I imagine real characters, so that I understand them. And until, I finish a novel, this blog is my let out.

6) Changing the world: Yes, I’ve always wanted to change the world. In fact, when I used to learn or hear about some important personality, I would immediately think, “When did he die? Maybe I’m his incarnation!”, And this has come with almost all personalities I’ve known about. I try to find similar traits between us and try to connect with him. But, even if I’m not an incarnation of a famous person, I’d like to make a difference in the human world and be famous now.

7) Money: I love money and the feeling that comes from having a lot of it. I want to be a multi billionaire, by hook or by crook. Hell, I’d even rob a bank, ok! I’m kidding, but I do want to be rich. I want me to be able to afford everything that I might want.

8 ) Life: Yes, I want to be immortal. I have always feared death and I never want to die. When I watched “The man from the earth” I thought maybe I’ll be like that, but I’ll only get to know when I’m thirty, but even if I’m not like that guy, I’d like to invent some medicine, which would change my DNA structure, so that I never die. I’ll never get tired of living.

Also, this isn’t my passion, but I’d like to remove the division of man into religious and skin color based groups. Every person is different and unique and his ideals and thoughts must not be trampled in the name of religion or that if they belong to the same color,” they must have a similar opinion” kind of thing, and also abolish reservation, cuz it just hurts unity.

Hey, tell me about your passions in the comments, if you’d like……