I’ve thought long and hard about this.. God, can he/she/it exist and if he does, then who is he?
I cannot, no matter what I do, cannot accept a God as a human entity… Yes, there may be a power beyond me but I just can’t convince myself.. I just think that there is a source of power, that never ending prime mover and universe just became what it did.. I don’t know how the rules developed, but they just did as they did.. I can’t understand why a bigger entity would care what I eat or if I appease it or not is, or who I have sex with.
I have considered some other possibilities like that of the balance of good and bad forces and how they will always balance each other through re-incarnation.. I’ve imagined that there a limited no. of souls in the world, and the same get recycled.. and as humans are increasing, animals are decreasing.. but there is a problem with this theory.. like what about when life started? souls must have started from 1 and then slowly increased.. then how can we say that they are not increasing anymore, or that there even exists a soul which survives beyond death?
At this point I’d like to cite reference to a movie which gave a very profound thought to this.. I’m talking about “I, robot” in which a robot becomes self aware.. and I just can’t get that scene out of my head when he is about to be injected with nanobots and he wonders how death feels..
Does that mean that we are too some biochemical machines which are no more when switched off? that we just stop existing and there is nothing beyond or before? maybe we’ve been banished by a superior race of beings who developed us to serve them and we, too, became too self aware..
I like to imagine that we are all in a sims kind of game and some alien kids are controlling our lives.. wouldn’t that explain so many of our irrationalities? Isn’t that how our video game characters would feel if they became self aware? I mean think about how violent our world is and how we are all driven by a desire to acquire new things.. how we need to keep discovering new land to keep away from fighting with each other over the one we already have.. how we will move onto discover other planets when we have exhausted earth. The theory doesn’t seem so far off now, does it?
I remember, I read a book named “Sophie’s World” where Sophie is a character in a book a father is writing for her daughter, but we see the world from Sophie’s eyes and slowly realize that she is just a self aware character.. she just has an illusion of free will….
Maybe we are just a virus colony on a small part of the universe which lies on a stool of some insect of another dimension floating in the plumbing system we call our universe, around other dirt and shit we call stars and galaxies, lying around other pieces of shit, we call parallel universes….
I am also reminded of George Carlin, who said he doesn’t believe in or pray to God.. but he does worship the sun, mainly because he can see it, and he prays to his friend Joe Pesci, cuz he looks like he can get things done.. I’ll leave you with his rant on this matter, which as much funny as it is philosophical..
But for all said and done.. even of an all-powerful entity does exist, I don’t think we’ll ever get to know or imagine how he might be..