Ramblings about relationships

I used to mock this one friend, whose girl(friend) was kind of moody, got angry frequently, yelled a lot. And although admittedly she’s a fun person when she isn’t being all that, I always advised him.. dude is she worth it for you? Is the drama worth the good times?

These days, I feel I was being a complete idiot 😛

I mean relationships form themselves, you don’t really work actively to develop a relationship with somebody. Even if you do, if there isn’t some genuine feeling behind the action, you both know it. ‘Salesman’ class of people can fool you for some time, but some cracks start to emerge.. eventually. If a relationship is developing, even by conscious effort, beyond a certain point, it’s out of your control.. it’ll keep it’s own pace.. it’ll grow or not grow naturally.. you can’t force it beyond.

And when  a relationship has formed, this is it. It’s a part of you now. There’s no fear or at least there shouldn’t be. You don’t fear your best friend’s gonna choose another friend and then he’s not gonna be a part of your life. Even if that happens, you don’t fear it, or at least you shouldn’t, because it’s out of your hands now, the relationship will charter it’s own course. It’s alive, actively affected by other’s thoughts and actions.

And why I feel like a fool for saying what I said? Because relationships aren’t business transactions, they’re not logical.. they’re random. You can choose to rip it out of your life,sure, but it’s gonna leave scars.. it’s gonna take a part of you with itself. You’ll feel the suffering of the relationship as it rots. And the relationship truly isn’t worth it when it’s being yanked on and pulled because of your actions, or the other person’s actions or the society’s actions. And you’re willing to suffer the pain of cutting a part of yourself because the pain of that thread slowly pulling apart is just too much to bear.

Maybe my opinion will change. Maybe I’ll realize that you can manage relationships logically without feeling you’re putting on an act. Maybe it’ll not feel so fake. Maybe.. it does come naturally to some people.. maybe sociopaths are the ones who really have it all figured out.

Something funny this time….

Well, I feel my blog is too serious, from my fiction to my life. So, I’ve decided to lighten things up a little by posting some funny videos I came across in the past few days.

1. Ah, L’Amour

First up is an animation, about men, women and all the relationships crap, and I gotta say the video is true to a certain extent…

2. The Dark Knight Spoofs

Watch these if you have seen The Dark Knight, this a pretty funny spoof of the batman-joker interrogation scene…. I’m still loling over this..

3. Strange Art

Now this measures how dirty your brain really is….

3 dreams, 1 girl, no connection at all

I have turned into a complete night owl and I think that’s taking a toll on my memory. Believe me, I have had my share of weird dreams, but the ones I had recently were somewhat more weird than usual. On 23rd July, when I was on my sleep marathon (during daytime ofcourse), I had one three dreams, as I was interrupted three times during my sleep, but strangely a girl made appearance in all three of my dreams. So as soon as I woke up, I wrote the dreams down, and I am posting an unedited, unmodified soft copy of what I wrote exactly at that time, when I was still in, I guess a hangover of the dream. Well, anyway here it goes:

DREAM NO. 1: I was in a village house, you know those big Haveli types and presumably with people who were my cousins. It was night time and a bunch of us were alone on the roof. The roof of the house next to us had some utensils (bartan). We threw some utensils (from our roof) which fell on those utensils thus making a lot of noise. The lady next door came screaming to our house while we roared with laughter. She woke everyone in our house and started arguing and shouting loudly. All the ladies were shouting at each other when I intervened, calmed her down and convinced her somehow, that it was all a big mistake.

Anyway, now that everyone was up, we were all sitting in a verandah or something. A girl was sitting with us, and I was looking for a chance to talk to her while others were busy in their own. I asked her, “Care for a stroll?”. I remember I said those exact words. Anyway, so we took a walk in the moonlit lanes of the village and I hugged her. I remember that hug, it was the most passionate hug I have ever given someone. Of course it was a dream, but I didn’t know this at the time I was having the dream. Anyway, it was really good. I really can’t remember the last time I felt this relieved in real or virtual life for that matter. It felt like I hadn’t done this for ages when I was dying to do this. Her touch was so warm, I strangely still remember that feeling.

Moving on, I also think I kissed her on the cheek but I am not too sure. Anyway so we were having this romantic talk, hand in hand, and just when I was about to say “I love you”, someone either called us from behind or my dream was disturbed and I woke up. I can’t recall, but I do remember I didn’t say it, when I wanted to so much.

Laughing yet? Yeah, yeah go on laugh, here’s the next one…

DREAM NO. 2: Ok, I don’t remember much of this dream except that at one point we were sitting together on a bed and I was leaning on her, you know affectionately and this old lady was sitting opposite to us chatting away.

Cut! A new dream starts abruptly withing that dream.. I was on a bicycle riding really fast, and I am strongly convinced that I was chasing someone. I reach a lane which looks exactly like the lane where my PG is. But I go past it and forward, but then I think that maybe I should go to my room upstairs and end this dream. I was suddenly aware that it was a dream. And then, my bike moved backwards of its own accord like hovering in the air.. I felt strange and scared and immediately opened my eyes, coming back to reality.

Yep, the last one freaked me out. I got up, had some water and decided not to fall in sleep again, but my laziness got the better of me….

DREAM NO. 3: Ok, so I was in a village with a dude, his wife(in village clothes) and a daku type dude (think gabbar). We were all riding this one horse, yes all of us on one horse! We reached a police station and the daku was trying to convince a policeman (with an unusually large and bulbous nose) about this big bear he had seen in this forest up on the mountain, and how a new record was made or maybe he was saying he made it. Anyway, the policeman didn’t believe and the daku jumped off the edge of the mountain into a pond like water body. The other dude screamed and jumped after him. And as he went into the pond, I was the dude, I mean it was me who was in the pond and I carried this daku dude out of the pond. But, we didn’t come out of a pond, we came out of a swimming pool in like a city club or something. And then “Anil Kapoor” and “Nassirudin Shah” enter in a military type uniform (the ones they wore in Karma, you know Subhash Ghai’s movie), and this daku dude is “Jackie Schroff” (again Karma style). Anyway, so Anil Kapoor and Nassirudin Shah came in with guns and two robots who were rubbing the floor, like scrubbing them.

Cut! A new dream withing the dream. I am driving a motor bike and a friend of mine is with me, sitting behind me. She (the same girl from the previous dreams) calls me on my phone, and asks me if I am going to come meet her. I have than earphone thing with my mobile and I say I will. I ask her till when she would be at home, and she replies 10:30. It was already ten by my watch and I say I have to go somewhere with my friend, and at what time will she return home, and she says 11. I say I’ll see her then and I won’t forget this feeling, I felt like missing someone, the pure, true genuine feeling of wanting to be with someone, which I hadn’t felt in years in real or virtual life. So, anyway, we reach a room, where my father’s friend’s wife is there and she talks to us about something concerning the wall or a painting on it, and I keep getting more restless by the second. I am waiting for her to finish so I can go… but I wake up.

Yep, these were the three dreams and I also wrote kind of a conclusion when I woke up, don’t know what I was thinking.. anyway, here it is….

The strange thing is that I can’t remember the face of that girl, despite her starring in all three of my dreams today. I don’t think I had ever seen that face before in my life and I wonder if I ever will again……….

So, you see what I mean.. these were crazy weird dreams, and I can’t seem to make head or tail of them.. you are welcome to leave any interpretations you like in your comments… and tell me about your weird dreams too, if you have any…

P.S. Hey, did anyone hear? Aamir, Madhavan and Sharman are the playing the three idiots in five point someone film version while kareena *toothpick* kapoor will play Neha… What are these guys playing at? Trying to make a movie about life at IIT or a re-union at IIT after 20 years? I think they should have taken new faces like that guy from dil, dosti, etc. what do you guys think?

The meme thief strikes…..!

While Ish and Ashish quarrel over who is the meme king/emperor, I’ve decided to become the meme thief…. I’m gonna steel and do any tag I like (well, no one tags me, what am I supposed to do? Its kind of like being jobless, you gotta do something illegal to survive in this competitive world 😛 )

So, the 1st tag is from Tattletale, Vasudha’s blog.

1. What have you realised recently?
It’s not about blaming the education system right now, Its about making the most of it, even though it has flaws.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
Nope…. still dry as a tundra.

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?
Ok, one guy and ten gals…….well u know why i would take the girls, but a guy cuz I need to talk to someone, while the girl talk is on 😉

4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
Paris…. it is so romantic.

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Hmmm…. so many dreams yaar, ok, how about being the next Steven Spielberg.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Well, you know rainbows occur when the water droplets refract the rays of the sun…. to make VIBGYOR out of the white light from the sun, so its not much about believing.

Oh my god, I’ve become a geek! I was afraid of that.

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
My internet connection 😉 … thats the only thing that helps me survive here.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Produce a movie for myself… or publish a novel.

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Yeah, I think I would if am absolutely sure that I am indeed in love with her.

10.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Ok, as no one tagged me, i’d list 3 good points about me 😛

a) I became patient, seriously, but after I watched Good Will Hunting, my parents had to suffer my wrath for 14 years b4 that.

b) When I love someone, I love them with all my heart and soul. I believe this will be my undoing.

c) I’m polite, err… ok, most of the time, I’m polite.

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Honesty.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
I dislike people who would do anything to gain someone’s attention…… but I wouldn’t go as far as saying that I hate them.

13. What is the one thing you cannot live without?
Internet! Internet! INTERNET!

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
It’s better they tell me. I am always ready to improve.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Man, have I got to say it again and again? INTERNET!

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Nope…. I hate shopping, except for gadgets, u give me some lakhs and I’ll be back within an hour.

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
What the faraday man? Was this written by a preist? Why do you want me to feel the guilt?

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
I would want to lose my laziness, if I wasn’t lazy, I might not be more happy, but I’d definitely be more successfull.

19. Whats the last shocking thing you’ve seen or heard?
None… I am bored out of my wits here.

20. Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?
Both, both, both…. accept my wish or I’ll tell mommy on you!

Ok, that was fun, for me atleast, the next tag is from Reema’s blog, “My Random Thoughts“, and hey if u r reading this Reema, welcome to wordpress!

1. Last movie you saw in a theater?
Jannat, it was a good movie, and the most important thing being, my views are somewhat like Arjun, you know those who don’t think happiness can be bought, don’t know where to shop…..

2. What book are you reading?
Not any right now, but was thinking about starting Macbeth or Hamlet.

3. Favorite board game?
Business or Monopoly to many. I like being the banker, the evil cheating banker 😉

4. Favorite magazine?
Reader’s Digest or maybe PC mag, haven’t read many to comment.

5. Favorite smells?
The smell of a new car, you know when you haven’t taken the plastic off, I love that smell.

6. Favorite sounds?
Man, a favorite, there are so many, how can anyone choose? But, I do know that I hate the sound of silence… rest all are good.

7. Worst feeling in the world?
Feeling not wanted, that no one in the world cares if you were here or not.

8. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up?
Arey yaar, abhi to soya tha! Uthna hi padega kya? paanch minute aur so jaata hun….zzzzz

9. Favorite fast food place?
Subway!

10. Future child’s name?
Haven’t thought about it… but surely not those sikh names, man, I mean they just get repetitive.

11. Finish this statement. “If I had lot of money I’d….?
Sleep, read and watch movies all day, I hate working 😛

12. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?
No… I sleep with a pillow, you know stuffed with cotton.

13. Storms – cool or scary?
Scary, totally! I have seen too many storm deaths on Nat Geo to think they are cool.

14. Favorite drink?
Water.

15. Finish this statement, “If I had the time I would….”?
Watch all the good movies ever made. Seriously there are so many to watch, sometimes I think, how will I ever watch so many movies in just 1 lifetime!

16. Do you eat the stems on broccoli?
What is broccoli?

17. If you could dye your hair any color, what would be your choice?
Black only… I don’t like any other colours except blonde, which look good only on girls or Decaprio.

18. Name all the different cities/towns you’ve lived in?
Jalandhar and now Kota.

19. Favorite sports to watch?
None, whichever is on, be it cricket, tennis or basketball.

20. One nice thing about the person who sent this to you?
I sent this to myself! You got a problem, lets take it outside…

21. What’s under your bed?
Bags, empty bags, maybe some monsters too.. 😛

22. Would you like to be born as yourself again?
No, I wish to be born prettier than I am.

23. Morning person, or night owl?
Night owl…

24. Over easy, or sunny side up?
Over easy.

25. Favorite place to relax?
Bed, with my lappy.

26. Favorite pie?
Never had one…………

27. Favorite ice cream flavor?
I hate ice cream. Yuck!

28. Of all the people you tagged this to, who’s most likely to respond first?
I’m not tagging anyone! Do thiefs share their loot?

Ok, so now that we are over with the tags, something about me, I had a test on 29th June, for which I started studying on the 28th, it was Ok, lets see what the results are….till next time, peace out!

P.S. I know, I shouldn’t have trackbacked people whose tags I stole, but you know, I’m like the Zodiac, I take responsibility for my crime.

Roadies 5.0 (Episode 8)- What the Fack was that?

Well, I finally watched the 12th April Roadies episode online, the way I’ll have to watch the rest of them. And man was that an episode full of shocks or what? The arrival of Simran and Varun was surely a surprise. The ladyboy thing was really cool, but man….the guys must be really embarrassed, of getting their legs and especially their eyebrows waxed. Varun and Vibhor did well. Nihal was as cheap as he could be. Ashu ka to pata hi tha, Bollywood style dance. The Girls all looked very sexy and Shambhavi looked like an expert, of course which she is being whorish and an expert at seducing guys. Ok, that was a cheap shot, I’m not sorry though. The second task was also cool, and to my delight Prabhjot and Vibhor won the immunity.

But, the thing that made me give this post that title which proves that I was in disbelief was the attitude of Shambhavi and Prabhjot towards each other. They were talking normally during the show, which seemed ok, cuz they had to spend the rest of the journey together. But the real surprise came at the vote-out. They were sweet to each other, hugged each other, Prabhjot voted against Nihal, she defended her and stuff……….and when Shambhavi got voted out, Shambhavi was saying good stuff about Prabhjot and wanted to meet her after the game, and even said she’d miss her! Heck, she even left a note only for Prabhjot, which Prabhjot considered “SO SWEET OF HER” and also said she was gonna miss Shambhavi. I was completely baffled on seeing that, like what was happening there. I was more than shocked and quoting Ranvijay, ” Kabhi socha nahi tha, ki aisa din bhi dekhunga.”

But, I’m pretty sure they were just acting, really abusing each other and cringing on the inside. Atleast, that’s what I’m telling myself, to give a logical explanation of what I saw. This just goes to show what they can do to stay in the game…………………………………..

I hate shopping for clothes…….

Yes, I hate it, I simply hate it, for the basic fact that I’m fat, a condition which many people call “healthy” in India like my mother, my sister-in-law(i hope thats what we call bhabhi) and many others, even some of my friends. I remind them again and again that healthy is being fit, and the thing is called being fat or obese.

Anyway back to the point, I hate shopping for clothes, my parents have to drag me to the shop(not literally), and I shop just once at the start of every season. I hate it because I’m totally embarrassed. I know that I should accept it and I do, but it’s just embarrassing to ask for over sized clothe, which have to be altered in length for you, and even more embarrassing to stand there in the trial room, and pulling up a pair of jeans which just won’t go higher and then walking out with those overtight jeans and ur mother asks you, “Kamar se tight to nahi hai?”(“Is it tight at your waist?”) I mean you’re there like totally red trying to hold your breath to flatten your stomach a little bit, and this bomb drops on you in front of the salesman and you are thinking, “wtf, I can manage if it is tight or not, why’d u have to ask me?”. But you say that it’s tight and the salesman picks out a bigger waist jeans for you, which is OK at the waist, but longer than you need. And then you try out t-shirts, which are equally embarrassing if they don’t fit. Finally when you are sitting in the back of your car, your parents are like giving you advice when you don’t need it. I have plans, I’m just too lazy to get off my ass.

I have written this, because I had to go through all this today, again. But no matter, I have a new plan and I’m gonna work on it from tomorrow.