This has been in my drafts for a while now.. I thought I should publish this…
You know maybe olden times were simpler, when everyone in a community cared about each other, knew about each other, when the word of the elders was the final word and you didn’t even want to oppose them.. when you worked all day with your friends and came home to your family… when there were no gadgets, no computers, no internet.. internet forums and groups and facebook is like the clans of the old world and the fact that we can’t feel each other around, makes us all behave like ass holes and jerks because we can be. earlier we used to be jerks to other clans and animals..
we spend all our lives being taught not to be violent, be civilized, not topple the jug over, carry ourselves gracefully, but what abt our animal instincts? what if i want to hit someone? should i hit myself? that’s why we play sports…. its the same thing, the clan, the enemies and all.. but i can’t even play sports properly… i wonder what i can do to get out of this birth/death cycle..
i think i’m gonna have a lonely life.. i’m ugly, and even i wouldnt be attracted to me.. so how can i expect anyone else to be.. i guess i’ll die masturbating in my old torn down room, with a packet of chips nearby, me staring at the computer screen and people wouldn’t even notice that i died…. I CAN HAZ A LIFE?
tell me what should i do? how do i get rid of my loser habits? I hope i am able to someday.. but would it even matter if i did?
let’s say i get into a good college and i get a good job and i get married and i ignore my family to earn loads of money and then what? i die…. and what would i have to show for my life then? did i contribute to the society in any way? or just lent a hand to the big corporate companies who suck our blood in return.. why was money created? i wish we would still have barter system and lead simpler lives……..