So, what has been going on is…

Let me see, I wrote the last post about my life in July. Not much has been going on though, as nothing much happens in this dreaded town. Nevertheless, I would like to update you guys on what’s been going on with me a little…

Firstly, let me apologize, for I realized that ever since I have come here, surprisingly, I have been talking too much about girls and relationships. In fact I’d go as far as saying that I had become obsessed with these topics. But, as for my love of theories, I have come up with a theory for this too. You see, firstly, I just turned 16 and a fresh pang of hormones hit my body, and more importantly my environment changed. Of all the guys I know in Kota, 80% of them are in relationships(of course with girls). 10% don’t want to be in one, 5% are desperate to be in one but are afraid to do something and 5% want it but deny it, saying that their studies will be affected. The thing with humans is that we follow what the majority is doing. In fact some researchers have proved that of majority of people say that 2+2 is not equal to 4, most people would be ready to change their answer. The same applies here. When most guys I know, are in relationships, and happy being in them, my brain thinks that it is something to be pursued and will help me be happy, and it must be good for me because most of them are doing it. I don’t know whether it’s good for me or not, but I certainly think about girls more, and girls make constant appearances in my dreams(pleanty to catch up with there). Anyway, the point was that apologize to you guys and myself too, for having done that.

Well, moving on, after July came August. The test of August 3 went bad, and besides celebrating the independence day doing nothing, I also went home for 4 days in the middle of August. Catching up with not so old friends and having fun after quite a long time. Despite my sister’s big ego issues that I wasn’t giving that much attention to her, I managed to be happy for those days. But, no one was satified. Parents said we spent too much time with friends, friends said we spent too little time with them, we felt we didn’t get much time at home after so many months. All in all a fruitful trip :P. Oh, and Vipul(my ex-room partner) showed me the pictures of her “dearly beloved”. Have to say, not at all what I imagined. We also celebrated his birthday on the 25th, and I gifted him a frame for the photo of his “db”. See, how thoughtful of me? (Yes, I’m insecure).

Anyway, I also happened to check out that latest delighting news about the IITs that how the OBCs will now only need 50% of the marks gotten by last candidate of the general category who got in. Obviously, generals still have the same number of seats, but the thing is that the institute is being diluted, its credibilty will be lost by the time I pass out, I guess. I don’t understand why we still play the old dirty game of “divide and rule”? I guess Bhagat Singh was right in a way when he said that independence through congress would just replace the whites with the browns, poor will still suffer and they still do. We have 1/3rd of the poorest people of the world living in India. The day I read it, I made up half my mind to leave for home the very same day. But, then I thought that maybe I could get into a foreign institute, as they say that if you have prepared for IIT, you have prepared for all of ’em. Cuz seriously, I am done with Indians. More on that later I guess(Yes, I still have a lot left).

I’ve also joined a new private Maths tution here, because my luck so far with maths teachers at the institute has been bad. And the first day, I accidently attened a 12th class batch, but didn’t have the balls to say it after realizing that after the first ten minutes, so I sat there for an hour and a half drawing on my copy. I’ve been pretty sick the whole last week with cold and fever, and have been spending my days pretty much in bed, thus the inactivity in the blogosphere. That, and my lack of creativity for coming up with comments, but that’s not the point here. And as a result of spending most of my time in bed, I have been having more dreams, and pretty good ones, you know the ones which make you feel miserable when you wake up, because you realize that life in reality still sucks and nothing will change for the next two years. And the hangovers of these dreams have been even worse. Seriously, like the other day, I woke up from such a dream to read an sms from my friend as follows:

A true love happens only once in d life time,

If it fails,

Then remaining is just a compromise with the 1and with our life.

Sad but True!

To which, in my post waking up hang over of the dream, I replied:

Ha Ha… Sad? I’d say funny enough to stab myself in the heart with it.

Man, he must have thought I was a freak.

Anyway, I am ok now, and in full swing to clean up my room, my studies and my blogging habits and my life. Bye for now.

Author: Jas A.

I think my picture describes me the best, a 21 yr old loner. Computer is my life and I used to be very good in studies, I mean very good, but I've been declining since 9th grade and lost interest. I have one passion in life "Movies", but I can't pursue direction cuz its not stable, and I love money, so I've decided to become a software engineer. Well, that's me, what about you?

12 thoughts on “So, what has been going on is…”

  1. Glad you’re feeling better. 🙂

    Hmm, wow, 80% of guys there are in a relationship? Weird. Those are really high numbers. Why is everyone so obsessed about being in a relationship? So I guess you’re in the group that wants to be in a relationship but is unwilling to do anything about it? Perx, you’re 16, I’m sure you’ve heard this all before, but you have your whole life ahead of you…if you find the right girl, it’s great, but you shouldn’t let it be an issue that affects your mood and happiness. Anyways, this is your blog, you can write about whatever you want, lol, so keep the long sagas coming.

    Good luck with the maths tuition. I think maths is one of those subjects where practice makes perfect…lol, so practice!

    BTW, I disagree with that SMS your friend sent you. Firstly, who even knows what love is? Secondly, what stops you from having a similar feelings for someone else? The only way love happens once in a lifetime is if someone is a saddo who stayed obsessed with one person their whole life and built them up to such a degree that no one else could match up. I don’t see you as that kind of person at all. You seem to be the type that stays grounded in reality.

    Good luck with the clean up. I’m off to write a 50 page essay on Pakistan-US relations…whooppee…not -roll eyes-.

  2. Kya?! 80% people are in a relationship? Abey itni ladkiyan kahaan se mil gayi unko? I’m sure aadhe toh phenk rahe honge. Anyway, chicks aur relationships ke baare mein I’m not gonna say anything. I don’t think I can contribute to that.

    Neither can I do to the OBC waala topic.

    You know what? This comment is seriously lame. I don’t have anything to contribute bas aise hi bakwaas kare ja raha hun jagah bharne ke liye. Good to know that you’re fine now. And good luck with the room cleaning..from personal experience, I know it’s not exactly an easy job. 😛

    OK, let me be very clear… 80% of the PEOPLE I KNOW are in relationships, otherwise, I’d say 80% of all students here aren’t in one…

    I know I’ve got my whole life ahead of me, and I don’t want to make it an issue, but the theory I wrote above messes with my psychology, its just the mistake of my human nature….
    Yeah, i agree, maths is all about practice…
    I kind of agree with my friend on that one… but i won’t say one true love is out there, i just think that certain people are most compatible with us, KIND OF LIKE “made for each other” but not exactly that…. and the others are just very close friends of ours…
    best of luck with the essay… howz it coming along?

    koi baat nahi… kai baar sirf comment karne ke liye bhi comment kar dena chahiye……

    again… 80% of people I KNOW are in a relationship… don’t come here dude, its not an easy return from hell…
    and thanx….

  4. I see your point Perx, but I don’t believe that there’s only one person who may be the most compatible with you. I mean, people change over time…for example, the crush that you had on someone 3 years ago should be different than the crush you have on someone now, because you either want different things or different things attract you now…if that makes sense.

    Um…out of 50 pages…I’ve written 10…oh well, better get to it.

  5. @Tigger
    I know you are right… its a logical explanation, but I just do believe in it…for some emotional reasons 😛
    Yeah, I do need some new friends… I’m tired of my friends and their girlfriends shit….
    ok, i like hearing about it, but I think I do need to change my company

  6. Lol, well, as long as it doesn’t make you miserable, then carry on believing.

    Yup, if you get more friends who aren’t in a relationship, you can laugh at all the poor saps that are in a relationship…or maybe that’s just me who thinks like that. The majority of my friends aren’t in a relationship and I don’t envy the one’s who are at all, because it just sounds like way too much crap.

  7. @tigger
    don’t know yaar… maybe i’ve seen too many sappy movies… thats why i think relationships are good, while they carry a lot of baggage, but i just think that when u know that someone loves u and trusts u completely, u believe u can do anything

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